Serene Chaos

Friday, December 06, 2002

My legs were dry, so I pulled my pajama pants legs up to apply lotion to my legs. The pants I am wearing are old flannels that I got at camp one summer. They get tighter at the ankles. Well, I have rather large calves because of gymnastics. I now cannot get the pants back down my legs. They are stuck. I am stuck in my pajama pants. I don't know how I got the ankle to be up above my calf, because there is no way I can pull the ankle back down to my ankle where it belongs.

Posted by Serene Chaos at 12:48:00 AM °°°

Thursday, December 05, 2002

I love it when you are looking and looking and looking for something really important. And then you find it!

I also love it when the internet doesn't work, it doesn't work, it doesn't work. Then, you restart the computer, and, it works!

I don't like it that the dancing rabbi is staring at me from the shelf above the computer. It's kind of freaky.

Posted by Serene Chaos at 11:58:00 PM °°°

Note to self: eight.

Posted by Serene Chaos at 12:15:00 AM °°°

I just got a big paper cut while filling out my Grinnell application. Is that a sign?

Posted by Serene Chaos at 12:08:00 AM °°°

Wednesday, December 04, 2002

It's my birthday. I am eighteen. I can now by cigarettes and porn. Neither of which I plan to do. So basically, today is just another day. :)

Posted by Serene Chaos at 8:14:00 PM °°°

I just realized that the reason I had decided that maybe I didn't want to apply to Grinnell College was that I was afraid I wouldn't get accepted. Which I very well may not. But now, I have decided to apply.

Posted by Serene Chaos at 5:14:00 PM °°°

Tuesday, December 03, 2002

Guess what tomorrow is?
No, really. Guess!!

Posted by Serene Chaos at 10:54:00 PM °°°

You should go take the Emode.com Inkblot Test. I did. And, although the test itself is pretty long, or maybe because of that, the results are frighteningly accurate. At least they were for myself.
My results were:

[R], your unconscious mind is driven most by Kindness

This means you have a deep desire to be kind and fair to others. You may even be preoccupied with finding kindness in the world around you, far more than you realize on a conscious level.

It is possible that the underlying reason you seek kindness in the world around you, is that you fear cruelty, the opposite of kindness. That could drive you to unconsciously project kindness wherever possible into your world. Regardless of its origin, your steadfast adherence to being kind to others is felt by people you are close to.

You are probably more susceptible than others to being overwhelmed by emotions — both yours and others'. It is possible that your unusually empathic nature is a result of your natural sensitivity to others' pain, and your desire to help them avoid it. For this reason, things might affect you more than they affect your friends and family. To protect yourself from too much emotional intensity, you might want to keep an eye out so you can recognize it when it starts. That will allow you to slow things down until you feel grounded again.

Overall, your strong orientation toward kindness gives you an optimistic nature, which translates into you seeing the best in the people around you. Because you're not one to be overly judgmental, others may seek out your company when they need a friend to talk to. People close to you likely know that you care deeply about the inner lives of others and can listen to what they have to say without imposing your views on them.

Posted by Serene Chaos at 9:39:00 PM °°°

Sunday, December 01, 2002

The editors of The New Folger Library edition of Hamlet give the reader a summary at the beginning of every scene, and a list of important quotes at the end of the book. Do you think they are telling us something? Like, there is no point in reading the book? I do. I definitely do.

Dear AP English Teacher,
I hope you are not reading this. If you are, this is not [R] writing this. It is someone else. Someone else completely. I always read the entire book, and always complete it in exactly the time frame you tell us to. (Also, I did not just end a sentence with a preposition.)
Thanks for giving me those 3's and 4's (something akin to D's) on my in-class essays. I really appreciate it.
Love,
Not [R]

Posted by Serene Chaos at 11:28:00 PM °°°