Nancy Drew Mystery #143: The Mystery of the Missing Grading Rubric.

It was Right Here 3 minutes ago. Now it's gone. I'm so confused. Come back grading rubric. Come back! I neeeeed yooouuuu!

Edited: I found the rubric! Mystery solved! (Um, it was on my desk. Under another piece of paper.)

I didn't used to enjoy being the only person in one of my classes, but now I really like it. The missing grading rubric is for that class. As it is a half semester class (to be followed by another half semester class in which I am the only student, but with a different professor), it is ending on Friday. So I am turning in my final project (the painfully written lesson plans) tomorrow.

Whenever I mention to anyone that I am the only student in one of my classes, they ask how that happened, and what it's like.

I think, in truth, it is a really good thing for me. I often don't speak in classes (though in education classes, I actually do speak on a fairly regular basis). And I have this odd fear of professors. So, being forced to spend time, one-on-one with a professor (or, two of them actually, by the time the semester is over), will have been good for me. Since I don't really speak in class, and I don't speak with professors outside of class, I have never really had anyone who I felt I could ask for recommendations. Now though, I think I can legitimately ask this professor for a recommendation if needed (and I'm actually planning on asking for one soon). Also, I think I was lucky because this professor is a really good professor - she's very passionate and knowledgeable about the subject (it is basically what she wrote her doctoral thesis on, I think). But, in some ways that is kind of problematic. Because she knows what she wants, and because I respect her comments so much, I want my work to be perfect, which it never will be (because perfection is unattainable). But overall, this class was a very good experience for me. I've never been this disappointed that a class is going to end, both because I will not be doing the readings anymore (which were, overall, very interesting), I won't be thinking about the subject anymore (which is very interesting), and I won't be talking with the professor on a regular basis anymore (I'll still see her sometimes though - she's one of my advisers).